Whining Mostly. Apologies.

It seems like a small pile of menial BS, but here's what's been bugging me:


1) I've still only got 2 patrons on Patreon, and while it's great to have any and I am so grateful for all the help I receive, I also witnessed one of the more successful Patreon folks from Amanda Palmer's Facebook Group help to bolster $92 in support for a chick doing vague math-related things. She had a goal of $75.

I want to give up. It doesn't matter what my goals or dreams are with this. I get $14 per month, which covers shipping plus like $6, which I am paying to other people on Patreon.
And then I start thinking that my patrons are really just pitying me. They don't really want my stupid prizes and no one does because if they did I would have more than two. People would be excited about the chance to win a sock monkey. Only two people seem to think this is a good idea, and my brain can't decide what their intentions are.


I usually don't say this stuff aloud for fear of alienating my already tiny fan base, but today I am kind of crumbling.


2) I think, unless things are fixed and I am given some huge benefit for going through this ordeal, I will no longer be attempting to sell things on eBay. It is not worth my time.

If you weren't following my post from earlier in the week on social media, here is it in short form:

Thursday: Finally posted auctions for the clothes I've been kicking my ass about for the last week, obsessively ironing and photographing every second I get sans baby. To my surprise, my seller limit is 2, meaning as a new seller, I can only have 2 auctions up until 90 days after my first sale.

Friday: Both auctions are taken offline with a short email saying I went over my limit. I go online to find that my new limit is now 0. I write an email to eBay customer service.

Saturday: I get a timely response from an eBay customer service representative, saying that this is definitely an error and she will pass my case along to the higher-ups to determine what happened and why. The process will take 7 to 10 business days.

I don't know if it is worth it to continue this avenue of income generation.



It seems like everything I do, every internet based economic trust fall I attempt, I wind up flat on my ass or crushing some people to death.
Maybe that is just how it feels right now.

In brighter news, GISHWHES is just 3 weeks away. I want to be excited but today I am worried that I burned through all of my energy and enthusiasm trying to build a monetary base and won't have any left for the hunt.

So it is time to turn my focus inward, rebuild what I can emotionally, and get ready for the wild ride that is GISHWHES.

Oh, and clean my house. My husband was sneezing like a madman all yesterday, allegedly from "house dust" though today he also feels unwell at work. It's true he sneezed a lot in our home, and he didn't sneeze out in public so much, but he did have a sneezing fit in the lobby, which is cleaned meticulously all the time.
So is it really house dust? Who knows! I do know that I would like to do a thorough cleaning of the air conditioner (which you're supposed to do here in Japan and I never have) so today I get to go out and buy a ladder, a can of air conditioner cleaner, and a tarp to put on the wall around and under the AC so it can leak out all its grossness on something other than the walls and furniture.

The good news? I found an English guide, written by an American stationed off-base in Okinawa, on how to clean this specific thing. Later, I will see if I can find a guide for cleaning a bath-tub and shower room as complicated as my own.

For now I will eat and relax and talk with friends. The day will be better.